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Sorry. i have no idea how it turned out to be like that. i cant bring myself to talk to u now, its so awkward. i feel so fking useless. i try to stop thinking about u but i cant i just cant. i think of u everyday and everywhere. wtf should i do.

~signed off by the owner of this playground, whose coin in the fountain is still owned by the original owner of it~

I still love you. i miss those happy times i had with you. those were the happiest i've had in my life. wish i had those times back. no one else has been able to give me the happiness u brought me.

~signed off by the owner of this playground~

honestly i feel that you've hurt me in many ways (i know i've hurt you before too and im terribly sorry for it hope u'll forgive me). but its ok. all im waiting for is this one day, that you'll love me as much as i do to you. i believe this one day will come and when it comes i'll know that all this time i'm loving u with all my heart, its worth it. it'll be all worth it. i'll be waiting for this one day full of hope and i know it'll come.

~signed of by the owner of this playground~

i just had a dream last night where i was trying to give u a hug but u were so scared u fell backwards and ran away from me... when i woke up i had such a huge relief but was so freaked out that i was on the verge of crying, i spent such a long time calming myself down...

~signed off by the owner of this playground~

today after i knew that you fell, i wanted to go ask if u were ok and 关心you, but i just couldn't muster enough courage to approach you... i feel so damn fucking useless... don't be fooled by my strong outer self, actually i am a shy person within. sorry that i always treat you somewhat with a cold shoulder when there are many people around... for the past few days i have been very emo uncontrollably because of you... usually a good game of tennis or table tennis would cheer me up with the endorphine and taking my mind of things, but today while playing table tennis, i just could not cheer up, could not concentrate, played like shit, couldn't even have a genuine smile. i feel damn terrible. when will this fucking end...

~signed of by the owner of this playground~

Hi, i am back for another posting xD sorry about the long time i never post.

I'm so glad you changed for me or is it just me being too demanding and thought too much last time? well nobody knows or cares, including me. :) I feel much better than before last time :D Thanks for saying I am understanding :) (this might be a bit ego xD) but then i doubt its easy to find someone else who is as understanding as me :D anyway thanks for being understanding to me too. The other day you chose that drink during dinner to take was because i liked it wasn't it? thanks :) I have no idea how to describe my feelings right now, um..... lets just say its :D . hehe. anyway i shall stop here :) <3

~signed off by the owner of this playground~

i have no idea why but i can't stop being angry with you... maybe its cause what u did last time caused my body to react in such a way...

someone got cold u cared so much and everything, i fell down from bike was bleeding and all, you didn't even care, just as usual switch the topic. can't stand this anymore, my body cannot take it anymore...

I guess you don't see the significance of having me in your life yet... come to think of it you were just like me when i was in year 1 and 2, not mature enough yet, not so serious and sensitive about such stuff... but nvm i will try my best to wait for you until u are ready for this, but sometimes i just can't help but feel like crying...

Guys can't cry? just by knowing u said that i think i would... u never see guy cry before doesn't mean they cannot... guys have feelings too and u hurt mine over and over and over again... you don't even care about what happens to me... always change the freaking topic...

i don't need someone who treats me like a normal friend and always talk to me about work and normal stuff... i need someone who truly cares and accompanies me... someone who talks to me when i'm down, encourages me. someone who cares about me when i get injured or so. someone who makes me happy and not the state i am in right now...terrible. i think i'm gonna collapse soon... i don't think i have cried so much in my life... i guess u are not mature enough to handle this? idk... i just know i am feeling very terrible now.

today mr lim was nice :) he didn't really scold me. and my best friend admitted to the thing that got me into trouble with mr lim. i guess i'm still worthy to be his friend :) yay

but he passed fever to me.... omg 全身无力 help.... i cannot get sick now.... next week got 5 tests!!!OMG( but history peeps who take jap have 6. my deepest condolences.) AH..................................................................................................... and shouldn't have told my older sis abut the sickness she's abit over paranoid...

well bye. good luck to all studying for test!

I had an old 5 dollar note in my wallet. today i found out its gone. I suspect that my best friend took it without my permission and replaced it with a new 5 dollar note cause he collects old notes and he wants my old 5 dollar note.... i'm not angry that my old 5 dollar note is gone but why did my best friend do that?
Also he got me into trouble with Mr Lim...
People always say treat people the way you want them to treat you, but then i treat people very well and don't suan them, don't make fun of them(at least rarely) or anything. But why does my best friend treat me the opposite of how i treat him? he suans me and calls me names. sigh... sometimes i wonder whether its the right thing to do by being a nice guy....

hi! this post is to tell you i changed my title... LOL got nothing to post so i post this lor just another post from me =D bye!

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yay people are noticing i updated my blog:D and its doesn't feel good to wait a year before posting :(

yesterday's "class gathering" was nice! but less than half of the class went O.o and only 5 stayed to watch movie O.o. Ice age was very very nice with 2 super extra squirrels doing so stupid sutff inside...

wah this weekend got loads of stuff to do... :'( till next time i got time to post

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