today after i knew that you fell, i wanted to go ask if u were ok and 关心you, but i just couldn't muster enough courage to approach you... i feel so damn fucking useless... don't be fooled by my strong outer self, actually i am a shy person within. sorry that i always treat you somewhat with a cold shoulder when there are many people around... for the past few days i have been very emo uncontrollably because of you... usually a good game of tennis or table tennis would cheer me up with the endorphine and taking my mind of things, but today while playing table tennis, i just could not cheer up, could not concentrate, played like shit, couldn't even have a genuine smile. i feel damn terrible. when will this fucking end...
~signed of by the owner of this playground~
